I think I got fired today, and I couldn’t be happier.
I went in today for my post-op appointment with my digestive health doctor/surgeon. It was one of the shortest appointments I’ve ever had – I think including the weigh-in, nurse check-in, and seeing the doctor/surgeon, I was there all of 12 minutes. The doctor took a look at my site (where the ostomy bag was), asked a few questions, asked if I had any questions, and basically told me I could now eat anything I wanted. As he got up to leave, he said “I think you’re done here,” and just like that, I was fired! 🙂 He also mentioned that he knew that it had been a long journey for me and that he still vividly remembered that night when I came in and he operated on me. I think he’s still a bit baffled by what I call my “two miracles” (not cancer, and un-narrowing of the colon).
This journey HAS been a long one, fraught with many ups and downs physically, emotionally and spiritually. It has taught me so many things. I have learned about the amazing power of prayer and its amazing ability to truly “lift burdens,” something I will never forget (well, at least not permanently – I’m human so I know I’ll have relapses and will need reminding). I’ve also seen the Body of Christ band together to help a person in need, and experienced the amazing peace and strength that can only come from Christ. I also learned even more about what foods to eat depending on what digestive situation I’m trying to avoid! I have a greater appreciation for what people with ostomy/ileostomy bags deal with and I’ve learned some tips to help with both. I could go on, but my brain is shutting down for the night . . .
As much as I would not have chosen the last 5 months of this journey, I would not trade it now. And even though this part of my journey is coming to a close and the doctor says “I think you’re done here,” I know my trials here on earth are not done. But I know that my Savior will continue to sustain me through whatever trials He chooses for me to walk through, and that one glorious day, my trials here on earth WILL be done. In fact, my trials will seem as nothing. I also know that for the rest of my life on earth I will carry the lessons I’ve learned during this journey, and I’m thankful for being the richer for it.
All this causes me to think of and pray for the dear souls out there who are still in the middle of their difficult journey, be it in health or relationships, emotional or spiritual. I know how difficult it is to stay encouraged and positive when there is an end in sight (here on earth), so I can imagine how difficult it is when there isn’t one. I don’t even know what to say to you but to say that I am praying for you, and that, if you are in Christ, there IS an end in sight – and it’s a glorious one!
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. (Romans 8:18)
So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look no to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:16-18)